And I strongly believe that we will meet again one day.

I realised that I still have a lot of emo blog titles saved in my phone. But I don’t really feel like using them. =D That’s a good sign. I’m stepping out of the emo-ness. Heehee.

Back to today. Physics mock SPA is screwed. I mean, I’ve screwed it up. Sigh. It’s a long story but I’m not going to say it here. And I got quite nervous before the mock SPA cause everyone was talking about it and stressing how important it was. Darn.

Fell asleep on the bus today. Zzz. And nearly slept on the lady sitting beside me. XDD Of course, I was telling myself before I fell asleep that I must move if I start to sleep on her. And I did! Twice. -_- She probably got quite irritated. At least, that’s what I would feel if someone slept on me. ><

PTM tomorrow. Sigh. And my mom is going. And I might have guitar in the morning. I don’t think I’m going to have time to do my homework.

Hmm, I should go and do my EOM now. Which is like writing an AQ answer. Which I usually get 1 mark. For ink. And effort. Okay, I just suck at arguing, okay? ;_;

I’ll probably be back soon. Or maybe next Friday. We’ll see about it. =D

ColorGenics

This is kind of creepy in the way that it’s actually accurate! (And darn it for the last part… I thought I was already not trying to blame things on others when it might is my fault.)

Oh yeah, I took this test on http://goldinuniverse.com

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You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to ‘All things bright and beautiful’. This personifies a caring person, a person who ‘needs’ and indeed ‘needs to be needed’.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore ‘why bother?’ You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

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Oh my god, I just realised this after I skimmed through all my rants to try and find a category for this post. I angst too much. Okay. So I shall cut down my angsting to a minimum (I wonder just how many people I’ve irritated with my posts? >< )

Can we do it again?

Sectionals in the morning. Can’t really decide if they were productive. XDD And I chased everyone out of the guitar room before 8.50am, if I’m not wrong. Evan banged the guitars around four to five times in a row while getting them out. And banged one of them once cause it dropped over after he put it on the stand. O.o

Got a headache from Physics and Math tutorial today. I think I was thinking too hard or getting a bit stressed. >< PW was just… random. Sometimes I don’t even know what I’m doing for PW anymore. I’m getting confused nowadays. And I’m supposed to be doing my Econs essay outline for tomorrow’s tutorial. I hate bringing my laptop to school cause it kills me to lug it all the way to school and back again.

Had fun during mass PE today. Played Captain’s Ball with the class which usually results in outbursts of laughter. Was forced to tuck in our shirts to differentiate between the two teams. My group was seriously outnumbered. >.> Saw a few “epic” saves that resulted in the captain catching the ball. XDDD And Chak had the ball bouncing through his legs twice (and hit him on the second time – I nearly rolled on the floor laughing – typical ROFL?). Kai Ming threw the ball onto Zenn’s head and it bounced off and he turned around. It was really funny. I think everyone in the gym were wondering why our class was so noisy. XDD But we can’t really help it, can we? =D Oh, that’s just because we moved into the gym when it rained halfway through our game. And we STILL had to tuck in our shirts. Boy, did we look funny.

Okay, ending this here cause I really need to go do my Econs essay outline. Be back soon. I hope.

For I can no longer be like a child.

Went to do PW at Dilys’ house today. CK was late (as usual?). I’m thinking we should tell him an earlier time so that we can meet him on time. XDDD

Dilys’ house had this Japanese feel, which was quite nice. And she has two air-conditioners in the living room alone! >.> What the heck?!

Did PW using Skype for Zenn who was sick. We had lots of fun hearing him cough and asking him how to use an oven. =D I remember there was this one time when I said that I was never going to touch his laptop again and he told me to shut up (or was it “Shaddup”? XD). It got kind of chaotic but we managed to do MSN things on Skype. At least, we could use conference call. XDDD And I put his call on hold accidentally when I video-called Dilys. He was swearing by the time we got back to him. LOL. It was super funny.

Anyway, we didn’t get too far with what we were doing. But somehow, we managed to settle things that were supposed to be settled today (and I asked for us to end early so that I could finish my work) and went home.

When I reached home, I was tired and fell asleep for 15 to 20 minutes. A miracle. It usually takes me 2 hours to wake up after my “nap”. =O I wonder why. And I’m tired again. Sigh. Why am I like that?

My mom’s going for the PTM. XD I knew it. And she’s going to drag me along with her. And talk to 4 subject tutors. ARGHH. I wish I can sit at a side and emo or something while she talks to the tutors. It’s super weird to have someone talk about you in front of you. Hmm, I wonder whose parents will be going. XD It should be fun seeing how much people look like their parents.

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Oh yeah, I went out for the entire day yesterday. Met up with Mirabelle and gang for lunch at Swensen’s (OMG, the food was super expensive, let’s not go there ever again) and then walked around for a while. When I met up with Mirabelle, I just walked right past her cause it didn’t occur to me that Mirabelle would wear a skirt. >.> XD It was quite a shock for me. Hehheh. But I’m glad to have met her before she leaves again. Saw Amanda, Bao Yi and Yee Ling buying the tickets. Haha. And they told me they were studying at Tampines library. Wow. Muggers through and through. I feel like doing the same thing every week now. XDDD

Anyway, met up with them after Mirabelle and the others left. Went to do Math and I managed to do quite a few questions cause I got a brainwave. Hehheh. But that died after the few questions I did. Tried to do Physics after that but to no avail, so we packed up and went to buy potato chips. =D Saw this guy shouting at a woman saying something about her wanting to have a shouting match, “you bitch!!!!!”. And we were so shocked we quickly left the place before they started fighting or something. That was really kind of scary, cause we were pretty near them when he started shouting. ><

Watched the movie. I guess the most amazing parts were the Inferi part, and how the actor for Tom Riddle (who is the nephew of the original actor for Tom Riddle, I think) looked exactly the same. >.> Amazing. Oh, and of course, Bellatrix Lestrange is really like a mad woman. O.o She’s a great actress. Though I wonder why the Death Eaters keep setting fires to the houses. I know that the Hagrid’s burning house part was in the book, but the burning of the Weasleys’ house wasn’t! Oh well, I couldn’t expect much with all the events of the book squished into a two-and-a-half hour movie, could I? But it was quite okay. At least, for Bao Yi who didn’t read the book. Some parts didn’t make much sense after they took out a big chunk of the dialogue, though. Kind of sad about that. And I was shocked that the movie was so long. We finished the chips within one hour or so into the movie. XDD

Went for dinner at the food court (thank goodness!) and Yee Ling who didn’t watch the movie decided not to join us. Haha, she hung up on Amanda immediately after she told her we were going to the food court!

After dinner, we went to take bus 21. Hehheh. And started talking about all the past memories of our primary school life. Ah~ The memories. Heehee.

All in all, I had a very enjoyable day yesterday. =D

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Okay, I shall end this here cause my battery’s running out.

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Wow. I didn’t realise it but this is already my 300th post! O.o Amazing that I managed to post so many in 2 years, which is more than I could say for my blogger. Haha.
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I pretended to be strong and got hurt.

Nothing much to talk about for yesterday. Thanks for reading my blog, Victoria(: Now I know you read it. The link to the tagboard is at the side. XDDD

In Physics tutorial, Chak was having lots of fun talking nonsense. As in, before the tutorial started. Then Mr. Chew was saying that if he unscrewed Chak’s head, he might find another smaller head (Chak’s) and if he unscrewed that, he might find another even smaller one inside! >.> We were all laughing when we heard that. But Chak fell asleep during the tutorial, though, and Mr. Chew looked like he was going to unscrew his head (but obviously he didn’t do so in the end). When he walked towards Chak, someone was like saying “Take video, take video!” XDDDD It was super funny. Chak lifted his head for about a second, then placed it back on the table again. Heehee. We were all laughing like mad by that time!

The Physics tutorial made me think so much that I got a tiny headache by the end of it, but I still had to go for the guitar comm meeting, so I decided to go to the library to try and make sense of whatever I’d been writing down for the past two hours. Called XH and her phone broke down (it’s not because of my call), so I went to the library on my own. Met couple of guitar people hanging out there, and XH tried to get me to sit beside her at the borrowing counter, but I decided to seek my own solitude at a table (with shaky legs). Nearly killed my brain trying to think of the solutions. T.T

Met up with the rest of the comm outside the library, and left for Kallang Macs. We weren’t very productive, though. I spent a lot of money on food. At different times. c= *sighs* Anyway, I think we really left lots of things undiscussed though it was almost done when I left (and had to run like mad to catch the bus cause I saw the bus while I was crossing the traffic lights).

And I’m tired of blogging for now, let me concentrate on doing other things. Yeah, that’s the end of today’s post, if you still don’t know. (Probably just me feeling weird to end it without saying something like that.)

I’m a prisoner in paradise.

XD Had lots of fun these few days.

In Physics lecture yesterday, Zenn and Shaun were arguing about whether wearing contact lens would help them to see better than if they wore glasses. And Chak just happened to turn around when Mr. Chew (who was lecturing) noticed him and asked him what was wrong. And Chak just said Nicole’s name cause she happened to be sitting beside her. And our whole class laughed like mad after that (and made a hell of a lot of noise in the relatively quiet Auditorium).

And then during recess, Cass, CK, Yew Long and I went back to our homeroom to do our tutorials cause we felt like it. XD And we left the lights off cause it was too warm outside. When everyone else came back, they left the lights off too. And Chak was saying that we left the lights switched off cause we didn’t want Miss Tan (who was taking us for GP cause Miss Chen was on course). And she really went into the next class! XDDDDDDDDD Our whole class was laughing our heads off (and Chak told us to keep quiet or she’ll find out). Then Mr. Tiew walked in and switched on our lights and we told him he wasn’t supposed to be here now. Haha. He walked out and we started laughing again. And the lights were promptly switched off. Then, Miss Tan walked in and asked whether we were living in darkness. XDD She told us that she thought we were in the next classroom. And we laughed again. I nearly rolled on the floor. As it was, I already had a hard time breathing properly. XDDD

On a sad note, apparently there’s someone going around SPEAKING ILL OF ME. No, it’s not you, and yes, you’re the sour grapes I’m talking about, if you’re reading it. Since you like insinuating people without using names so much, I shall take a leaf out of your book. Come on, I couldn’t help it, okay? It’s not like I forced them to help me or anything, so QUIT WHINING TO OTHERS ABOUT ME. You’re not a princess.

Okay, enough about that. Oh, this reminds me, Mr. Tiew spelt “enough” as “enuff” on the whiteboard today! Valerie and I were like >.> “Did he just write ‘enuff’?!” Quite interesting to find that out!

Okay, it’s really enough for today. XDD Ending here!

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Just read Ao no Exorcist. It feels like a compacted version of D.Gray-man. And I must say that the art is good! XD So I shall continue reading it! And it’s a shonen manga too. Yay(: Then I’ll be sticking with it right from the start. Now I just have to find out the day the chapters come out…
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From despair grows darkness.

Woke up late this morning. I was supposed to wake up at 7am so that I had ample time to prepare for the CIP, but somehow my alarm either didn’t ring or I slept through it, cause when I woke up, it was due to XH’s sms (and I think I was having a weird dream, but I can’t remember what it was about already) and my scary sms ringtone. Yes, that’s the reason why I use such a loud sms ringtone. It’s better than using my songs, right?

Bathed in 5 minutes. O.o Then I rushed out of my house after making a lot of noise that woke my whole family up (and I still had the time to wear my contacts and comb my hair). Ran half of the way, then I ran out of breath. Met Jing Qi and her other friends on the way. So we walked/strolled there together. XDDD

We were given instructions and we set off to do our door-to-door sales of postcards. XD Good thing I didn’t run into my old classmates or something. It’ll be weird.

Anyway, the thing went quite well in the first block (216 – we had to do 5 blocks), but got progressively worse as we went on. Our secret weapon – “We’re from DHS.” Apparently it works quite well, though some people just refused to donate (not that we could force them to). There was this one kind person who actually gave us $20! >.> We were all stunned. Haha.

After the sales, we decided to walk back to the centre. Oh, and by the way, the centre is at the market near my house. Stopped by 7-Eleven to buy milk tea. XD 3 bottles for $3!!! What a cheap bargain! I shared with XH and Wan Si. Heehee. Jing Qi found out later, and she was telling us to remind her to buy it cause she likes the milk tea too!

Oh yeah, we were the first group to go back to the centre, and there was no one else around. We ate the chocolate wafer, and started chatting randomly. Halfway through, another group came in. I think they were from another JC, but I’ve no idea if they were from PJC or VJC. Then another group from our school came in. And the student organisers decided to collect the money and leftover postcards, so we gave them and I went home. XDDD I’m super happy that I can walk home for once! And the others have to take a bus. XDDD It’s actually the first time. Well, for school-based activities, anyway.

And I kind of have a headache (maybe cause I woke up too early?) but I still have a lot of things left undone! And there’s sectionals tomorrow morning + comm meeting = waking up early to go to school and getting the guitar room key. Sigh. I should inform the teachers early to pass me the key or we’ll be locked out until who-knows-what time.

Okay, ending this here.

Oh, and my plurk address is: http://plurk.com/addenza If you’re interested to check it out, that is.

I wonder…

Finally got a plurk account, cause YH was spamming me emails. XDD Nah, it’s kind of fun. At least, I don’t have to worry about people whom I don’t get along well with reading all my thoughts and stuff. Heehee. I feel like I’m starting over from scratch. Unless plurk suddenly grows very popular or something, that is. But most people are using twitter, so I guess I’m kind of safe? Haha. I think too much.

Haha, I tried doing some work today but totally failed. Okay, it’s technically yesterday but let’s not bother about things like that.

Hopefully CIP will be fun, since it’s in a place where I can reach in 10 minutes by foot. XD Door-to-door sales? That should be interesting. I can just imagine knocking on the door to sell things and my ex-classmates opening the door. They’ll probably give that O.o face! XDDD

Okay, I really should get some sleep now. I’ve to wake up at 7am tomorrow. It feels like I’ve not been getting enough sleep this entire week. Maybe I’m just not used to sleeping fewer hours as compared to the holidays. XDDD Okay, let me stop here. The end.

The melancholy moon wept.

Went home feeling miserable for the 4 days out of the 5. Don’t even ask me why. It just gets too depressing. I’m glad it’s already the weekend.

Got back my results, and they suck. I wonder where I’ve gone wrong. Hmm. Or maybe I’m just plain stupid. That’s probably it.

I should stop thinking so negatively.

Don’t really have a lot to talk about for the past week. It depresses me.

Life sucks.

And I should go do my homework now.

When it all becomes too much.

Sometimes I think I should just give it all up.

And sometimes, my best just isn’t THE best. That’s something I’ve learnt this time.